I'm a Criminal! So I Stole This Idea!
My turn! I saw this on Suz's blog, which she stole from Jim, which I'm now stealing for mine! As much as we think we get to know someone, I think there will always be one thing that will surprise another!1.When I was a child I dreamt of growing up to be a professonal ice skater.
2. Until the last 5 years, Christmas was always something I dreaded, and prefered to be alone. It was always a sad time for me.
3. I was born and raised in the St. Louis area - youngest of 2 -I have one sister that I was separated from when I was 7 when my parents divorced. I have a step-brother and step-sister who are also older, but have been out of contact with for more than 15 yesrs.
4. My childhood continues to haunt me in some shape or form. My parents divorced when I was 7, at which time I went to live with my mother. My mother is an alcholic, addicted to prescription "high" feeling drugs, and an extremely mean drunk. I spent 6 years of emotional and physical abuse in that home. I like to say that I'm a survivor. A survivor of abuse, and of molestation and rape by a family member. These are things that I can't change, but I've always believed that these are the reasons that I am a strong person today. I WILL not be beaten down, and my sole purpose in life was to make sure that when I grew up and had children of my own, they would always know that they were loved, and to never suffer from the hands of another.
5. I have always been somewhat of a loner. In school I had many aquaintances, a few close friends, but always kept distant for fear of getting too close and caring too much. As an adult, I still have no close friends, other than my husband. I feel closer to blends than I do with people in my everyday life.
6. I love to sing, read, sketch, paint, decorate, although I don't take the time for any of it anymore.
7. A few places/things I would like to on a vacation and/or during my free time are as follows:
a. Romantic getaway to an island in the Carribean
b. Take my hubby to see the Biltmore Mansion in Deleware.
c. A week long stay in a cabin in Colorado.
d. Stay in a cottage in Cape Cod
e. Revisit my grandparents house in Cape Coral, Florida where I spent every summer between the ages of 4-17. Many happy memories here, more of a home than what was my home.
8. My high school years were difficult. My weight ballooned up to 163 pounds my sophmore year, and I could never get below 150. From the ages of 11-29, I suffered great bouts of anorexia. It was on again, off again...I continued to struggle in my adults years, with weights ranging from 117 pounds to 165 pounds. Then pregnancy hit, and I thought it was a 9 month buffet and swelled up to 200lbs. 3 months after giving birth was when I hit 117 pounds. I was extremely sick, losing bladder function, memory, sleep deprivation and nearly crashed.
9. I've only tried one drug, which was by accident. I was so hung up on my weight, that when I was 12 my mother gave me some "pills" to help me lose weight. After taking 2, I was violently throwing up. Turns out that what she gave me was speed, known as black beauties. I've never tried pot, LSD, or any other illegal drug since. Smoking was/is still my vice and horrible addiction that needs to be left behind. For many years I was terrified of even having alcohol around. After trusting myself that I had control over alcohol, I succumbed to having some on social occassions.
10. I never got asked to my high school proms.
11. Through all my highs and lows in high school, I came out of my shell a little towards my junior year. I became our senior class vice president.
12. I can't stand politics, have registered, but never voted. (Ironic when you look at #11)
13. I'm stubborn, sarcastic, analytical, conniving at times with using reverse psychology on my children....yet intelligent, strong willed, independent, hopelessly trusting to people in need, witty, loyal, open hearted, forgiving, insightful, and maybe overly cautious of others feelings.
14. I want to complete the writing course that I started but never finished over 5 years ago and do free-lance fiction.
15. I quit college with just 3 semesters left of my bachelors in media communications/broadcast journalism.
16. I've always been a firm believer in soul mates. I always wanted a relationship like my grandparents had. My first marriage was practice for the real thing, my second IS the real thing. I found my soul mate by accident!
17. I collect several things. I collect castles, wizards, and dragons. I would like to add gargoyles to my collection. I love anything from the medieval time era. I also collect anything with wolves. I think they are such beautiful creatures! I recently started collecting other native things such as statues of Indian maidens. I am mesmerized by the beliefs and customs of some of the tribes of the past.
18. I could never survive without music. It is one of my greatest passions. It first started as an escape from things going on around me as a child. I would drown myself in it. By the age of 12, I realized that I had a real talent. Singing became everything to me. In high school, I made my name through my voice. I quickly learned that I could express so much of my emotions through song. I started competing, and achieved many awards and recognitions. I was 1 of 4 selected from my school district (out of 24 schoolsl) to attend the All State Choir my junior year. My voice paid for my first year of college. Free ride (except for books) on my vocal music scholarship. I never pursued my music career beyond the age of 21. Fear that if I tried it, and failed that I would lose my passion for it. I still sang for the local churches, weddings, even funerals up until 6 years ago. I don't know why I quit, and I do miss it. But to this day, I'm always singing wherever I go. My family seems to enjoy hearing me sing, and I still have the passion!
19. My goal in life is to give and receive love, and to be successful in my career. My husband, our children and our families are the most important things.
20. I don't have the need to be rich. I'm pretty much a country girl at heart, and the little things go a long way with me. I want to get to the point where we are not living paycheck to paycheck, but to never lose sight of the notion that the pleasantries of life is to be earned.
21. A perfect night for me woud be with my sweetheart, under a palm tree watching the sunset.
22. I am a dreamer at heart, but rational with finances....so our dreams will become reality, of this I'm sure, but patience is a virtue that I cling to for this!
23. I worry and over-think the little things! I'm always in fear of hurting someone else's feelings that often times create my own problems!
24. For the first time in my life, I am starting to like my body!
25. I retrospect things about my past and am proud of who I am today. I try not to take things for granted, for they could be gone tomorrow. Possessional things are wonderful, but meaningless when you think about it. What matters most to me is that we have a roof over our heads, we're healthy, happy and when you have your soulmate and children, what could possibly be better than that?
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