Wednesday, October 26, 2005

"Crossing The Abyss" What Does It Mean?

As I ponder this question, I realize that I am not the first one to wonder, yet I don't think I've actually seen or read a true answer. Why is this? Like trying to define the word "love," there really isn't just one answer, as everyone's perception is unique and comprises of semblance to their own lives and beliefs. So it is up to the individual to figure out just when they have crossed that abyss, and what that abyss is. We are talking about a transformation, yes? Through our transformations, there will be times of impatience, stalls, or even moments of hopelessness. Let us not forget that any transformation is a process, or metamorphosis, so to speak. Take the caterpillar for instance. No one really pays much attention to the caterpillar. In the stages of the cocoon, there's really not much to look at either. Nothing really seems to be happening, to the naked eye. But inside those walls, there are miraculous changes coming about! Everyone around it is oblivious to these changes, maybe even the caterpillar himself. But one day, the cocoon opens, and out soars a beautiful butterfly full of vibrancy, life and color.

The moral of my story here is, when you get down and don't really see any physical changes happening, take a step back and remember that there are changes going on inside as well. While your body is changing on the outside, your mind is changing as well to keep up. A process.
Ask yourself, what is holding me back? Whether it be a difficult relationship, lack of self esteem, an abusive childhood, or little to no confidence, there may be something holding you back from realizing all that you are, and all that you really have to offer. It's a change from the inside, to let go of old feelings. Think about it. What's blocking you? Figure it out. Recognize the lesson to be learned from it. Let it go. Then move on. You may look back, not with regret, but with pride to know that you made it through. Then keep moving forward and take flight on the wings that you never knew you had! It's that moment when you look in the mirror, and you recognize the new you looking back at you, and you're proud of that image that you see reflecting back at you!
Changing our own perception of ourselves may be one of the most difficult challenges we face during our transformation. Start by believing in yourself.